After rushing him to the vets I was told his spine and pelvis was fractured and he had absent deep pain sensation and therefore there was less than a 20% chance of survival. He was my best friend and I cannot stop crying. An hour later they called and told me he had died. We couldn’t stand the thought of her being on an IV and in a cage for her last possible night so we gave her a shot of steroids and went home to think about it. We knew it would probably be his last year. The vets said at the time she had maybe 6-8 weeks tops. He went down hill so fast. Want to thank you SUE for sharing your story ,it was comforting for me to read your words , We had to put our beloved Shih Tzu down a month ago now , It was One of the hardest things I had to decide to do . I let them get so close to her before cutting them, it would often be right next to her pad before I decided to force her to let me cut them. I kissed her and said her name and she slightly opened her eyes– she she wasn’t really even there any more… My girl left because end the pay before she was even taken to the vet. She was my heart. I said goodbye to my sweet Josie today. She lived for the last two years with blindness due to cataracts and was almost completely deaf. Chronic neglect allegedly led to the deaths of three puppies in Connecticut. I think she may have just had an infection or virus, etc. I love my boy Stuart so much and I hope I made the right choice. Sometimes, things may not be as dire as you believe. He was treated with multiple antibiotics, skin treatments, etc. But the lump kept growing and eventually his skin was stretched so much that it started to split and weep a little. The need to know why is totally understandable – I’ve been there myself – and while we sometimes may get answers, then there are times when we don’t. They gave me information about kidney failure and said she could have months or 3 years to live. Unfortunately, on Saturday I realized the pain was unbearable for her, her breathing was very labored, sounded like a lawn mower trying to start, my home was at 75 degrees and she was still shivering, so I turned it up and it didn’t help. I remember thinking back then, that dogs are pack animals and hoped they were happy being part of our “pack”. After several weeks of beating myself up, my girl came through and I asked her if I’d done the right thing for her at the time and she gave me the greatest gift – she told me, ‘I was relieved.’ Through those simple words and some further things she showed me I was finally able to see the bigger picture, let go of the guilt I’d been putting myself through and acknowledge that she is very much still around me ( she’d been giving me so many signs of her continuing love but I’d been too grief stricken to truly acknowledge them) A pet can add structure to your day, keep you active and social, help you to overcome setbacks and challenges in life, and even provide a sense of meaning or purpose. I feel your pain I really do I can’t say anything to help because I know it won’t help :(, I feel so very guilty for my 17 years old persian cat that passed yesterday, loved and cherished so much one each other. I felt it and it was clicking and he was in a lot of pain when I tried to move it. Did I do that? Please know that I wish for you the greatest peace within and the knowing that Kia is still around, albeit in a different form. Unfortunately my fur baby had problems with aggression towards other animals. It’s been eleven days and I can’t stop crying. How could i not protect her? I miss her unlike I have ever missed anyone. All the best, Kristy. At the time, his breathing seemed fine – he just seemed to be lethargic. He died 3 days after surgery. Then, within the last year we also noticed his legs were getting a little weaker, not too bad, but that he was getting arthritis. She stopped eating and drinking and wouldnt even take her treats. Whatever written in your article is very accurate. She still ate and evacuated well but I would cry when she would be oblivious to things, which made her so vulnerable and when she hurt herself by bumping into things. I knew it was time because sshe couldnt walk without falling over. I just had to put down my beloved dog Scooby yesterday 3/12/2015. Please forgive me for not saving you, for not coming after you to bring you in to the house that horrible, fateful night. The best thing you can do for Omar now is to find a state of peace and go deep into your heart space where Omar lives still, and connect with him there. There was a gap of about 8 years where we did not have a cat. She was a sweet dog. It was confirmed it was broken, and all my fears were that he’d need an operation which he probably wouldn’t survive, but my optimistic dad was saying they would just put it in a cast and tell us to keep him resting it. I carry her to the litter box (and sometimes she urinates on her blanket before I can get her to the box). Rest in peace my beautiful big bruiser bobby I will always love you. I cried all night. She even tried protecting us when they came in for the second and final shot completely out of it. Although I was able to see her once in the ICU on the Saturday afternoon before she died that evening, she was on very high doses of morphine for her pain and I don’t even know if she was aware of my presence. I look at her and just can’t imagine letting her go. He was so loved and pampered probably more than some poor little children in the world ( must keep things in perspective I tell myself ) xxx. I adopted Munchie when he was 9 months old from the local pet clinic. My torment is that I later realized the steroids may have helped his breathing in a few days I didn’t realize that and thought it was only to help him eat and drink more. They won’t feed your pets properly and if they have a hard time taking care of them, they will let the pets die of starvation. 24/7 always together. My husband works evenings, so once he left it was cuddle time for Munchie and I. We thought that it would be this lump that would burst and be what would take him from us, but it turned out to be his other front leg. He said our cat had urinary tract infection, the vet was giving him a catheter and meds, told me he would be there for a few days. We are never ready to let them go…you are not being selfish. We took him in to get blood work to clean his teeth back in May. It absolutely breaks my heart that I let this happen and didn’t check up on him that night. Sometimes a pet But we’re only human, you loved your birds, you sound so lovely & caring & I’m upset that you are so hard on yourself when you have so much sorrow in your personal life, please don’t be that way, it was just a mistake because you had so much stress & you’re a lovely person xxx. Dogs can’t speak up for themselves when humans are mistreating them, so it’s important to step up when we suspect a problem. I miss her more now then I ever thought I can imagine. I had my dog for a little over 12 years and she would have turned 14 this November. Lily – It was winter after all, so the probability that he went astray was minimal. it is very reassuring. She had a double dewclaw, her claws sat together and curled under making them extremely hard to cut. I should’ve been his protector. Still feel sad and we will honour him with our grief but we will try to remember all the happy life he had. I feel like a part of me is missing. My cat passed on a Sunday so we rushed to the animal shelter, but it was too late. It is so hard. We go back to check blood. But when I called, it was too late. I cried and cried. I feel horrible. Because direct communication has helped me and my husband so much, I have decided to provide a way for others who have lost a pet to connect with their own pet, and I will soon be releasing a meditation on meeting and connecting with your pet in the afterlife. That means that yesterday morning when we woke up and found her cuddling with the other two cats, something she never does, she was saying goodbye. Our choices were to aspirate the spleen or just let her hang on as long as possible. It will come in waves. Said he would call me in the morning. Very playfull, cheerfull… One night he woke me up vomiting, but only once. My husband was layed off from his original job so him and I were both working low wage jobs. I noticed he was bleeding from his butt and rushed him to the vet besides the blood he was ok. By the time I got there he had vomited and was weak. I took him to the vet today and was today he needed surgery, x Rays blood work and medications. In extremely hot weather, they can become dehydrated quickly and die from heat stroke as their organs shut down. The only other option was said to be amputation but we were told his quality of life would be terrible as his other three legs weren’t the best anyway and he’d suffer a lot. It sure sounds stupid and conflicting, me knowing it’s not her fault but still not forgiving her. He was only 13 and should have had many more years. He seemed poorly so I put him on my bed and decided to take him to the vets in the morning. When it was time to leave, I couldn’t find him. I was and still am in shock. Simple as that. He was a jack Russell who went everywhere with me from horse shows, to camping, to the grocery store. After all this, all I really care about is if his soul is at peace. In times of emotional distress we are likely to be desperate and vulnerable and may be in a situation where we have no real choice but to believe blindly in an authority and suppress our own intuition, especially when we must make instant decisions. And then you realize when they start growing up, your partner has issues with them suddenly. It now looks like I will need to put my next fur baby to sleep in near future she is also 14 going 15 year and the daughter to one I lost…… Just it’s raining and storming here right now and all my babies are scared of storms I feel I need to keep them all safe, maybe it’s because I just got her ashes back, and certificate says she was privately cremated on 25th but died on 12th I hope they looked after her my heart is breaking right now and the tears won’t stop. I had to put down my beagle of 13 years that was becoming anemic due to bleeding. I woke up the next morning and he was gone. And you’re definitely not alone in having a hard time letting go. I fell in love with her the first day I had her. My heart is too! I regret that she lived 10 years confined-breaking her spirit to live, and that 5 years ago I could have and should have taken her back. Certainly reading everyone’s stories has allowed me to think this is all a normal process and I need to give myself some time. The peace and quite I sought turned out to be a huge void in my heart and the biggest torment I ever experienced. I’ve found a lot but I’m still deeply struggling with my biggest consuming feeling. I know that if I gave her away, I would regret it. But in the morning he fell off the bed and took off out of the room walking like he was drunk, then lay down. Kelli I just lost my little chihuahua of nine years.. Way wrong. Let common sense be your guide, but once you recognize the signs of neglect, it becomes critical that you act quickly to save the animal. I truly hope you are beginning to feel some peace in your heart now. I moved into a new house several years ago and soon after discovered an elderly cat living in the backyard. She was a very timid girl and was always terrified to go to the vet’s office. I will never forgive myself for that horrific mistake. You can also contact your local police department to report suspected animal neglect. My ex offered to keep my cat for me until I got settled in my new apartment. I certainly know how much pain you are in, but I am realizing that she is teaching a great deal about life, my relationships, my priorities. He was the most beautiful boy, I only hope he reflects on his life & thinks we did a good job making his life great :). I talked to her and told her how much I loved her. My vet’s exact words were, out of what he thought was my earshot; “I have to go deal with the cat lady.” He certainly took his time getting us back there. After having that dream of being in that exact room too. I am also tormented with guilt, my seemingly healthy 11 year old cockapoo starting breathing heavy and shaking Thursday night. I have just had to put my dog to sleep brad was 14 his legs were going on him his eyes were cloudy seemed to be losing it and he had started to get nasty with my son which he had never done before he had biten him last year but this was different it was bad. I just can’t deal with it. We laid her in her favorite sunny spot on the porch and held her in bed. Our younger cat is showing signs of depression. Take care. I know we made the right decision, but it never makes it easy. I had been taking him to a vet who had been over-vaccinating him. I read her cues wrong. We all make decisions that sometimes are not the right ones. Yesterday, she was defecating and due to the arthritis in her back legs she just fell back right into her waste. I feel like I killed him. I knew then, I could not allow her to live this kind of life if I loved her so much. I had to make the heart breaking decision to euthanize him. 1) Many people would not take care of kittens they found. I hope you can find your way through this. We are in shock and crushed. Hugs and well wishes to you and yours. I feel like I killed my dog. Her was 8 years old and had Disk Disease resulting in loss of use of hind legs . What a horrible feeling. They did xrays and found he had congestive heart failure, lots of fluid in his lungs and his legs were paralyzed. You can certainly benefit from my suggestions in the article above and much more if you use the search box. Now I have no way of knowing if they bothered her or not, and worse still I have no way of turning back the clock and doing it differently. He gave a couple cries like he didn’t feel good. Why didn’t I stop the procedure right then and there? I can totally relate Paige. My cat Freya slipped out of the house 2 1/2 months ago when a workman left the door open for the second time. So they suggested that maybe it’s better option to put him to sleep. I keep telling my self maybe if we let the sedatives wear off and waited a bit more he would have gotten better and we could have had a bit more time with him. I’ve read every single one of your comments trying to find some common feeling about the loss of a dog. It came as a complete shock to me because she had never bitten a person before and never showed any signs that she would bite anyone. This routine really made my sisters and mother angry so one day they had a big fight about this. I have never felt so ashamed/guilty. After about 10 minutes, my anxiety started to feel better, but I was consumed with drowsiness as my pills had now fully set in. My pup did the same thing, i didn’t get her to the vets intime and I can’t cope with the guilt. The perspective in this article is from one of my spirit guides, a source of great wisdom. Had her since teenage now almost 35 years. I’d take her to the Vet, hand feed her baby food, nurse her back to health. Then in the last year or two he started getting more, smaller ones, and we were told they were fatty lumps luckily. I feel like I failed him, because I didn’t search for him already on the first evening. He was awake a lot but also slept and snored as usual and ate some food. He stayed in one night, he was ok to come home the next day. She was best! She had been dying out there for two and half months and we had somehow missed her every single day. We are assuming that this is what happened to her on two previous episodes in the last six months and did not know what caused it. She was lucky to get to go to work with my husband for the past two years, we called her our little warehouse dog. We watched him loose some of his hearing and sight. My beloved chocolate lab Hershey is 13. She was 11 years old when she passed away and had a great life. She developed cancer about two years ago. I feel the same as you. Sometimes I think I see his shadow on the bed or feel the weight of him laying on my feet. I hope some of these thoughts are helpful to you. I drove her immediatly to the nearest vet. This site is a blessing. My beloved cat, Nina, died on Friday, Jan. 29, 2016. It wasn't long before my little blue parakeet died too. I don’t know, I feel guilt now for not looking further into it further. I didn’t want her to be in pain at night. Your story will help so many. We had two male cats and one female- all from the same mother who got lost less that a year later after they were born. Here are some simple messages you can use in a card, a text message, or on the phone to console your friend after the death of their beloved pet. The guilt I feel about this is eating me alive. We couldn’t afford the surgery. I hope it gets easier for all of us coping with losing our dear friends. as she was and saw her i said i wont accept and won t leave her to go like this that she deserve to not panic and dye in the hands of the vets on a table …i guess i didn t want to accept that her time has came after all and just said that she needs a better passing ,in her bed with me beside her untill the end and after all i have seen, called the vet at 3 am morning and said that i was wrong i had better done that and i d come now, told me it s easter and it wouldn t be deacent and also too late cuz they wouldn t find a vein… saw her pain and i was still able to do this untill the end just conforting her, talking all night, petting her untill the morning when she went …you feel guilt of trying to do the right thing….i was week and thought it s better not to do it, and moral that she would deserve a family member treatment cuz you don t decide in this case ok put him down , you stay be him or her till the end ….she passed, but not peacefull at all. We feel like we killed our dog. I totally forgot that he had health issues and was crying all the time. We thought she may have just been feeling a little ill and she would start feeling better. For most of Molly’s life she did her job well. I hope that you will also get to that point some day soon. Today is January 12,2016 and on January 9, 2016 I had to put down my orange tabby, Stuart. I am comsumed with grief he was the best dog ever I feel like I let him down I should off tried harder I know he was in pain and I didn’t want him to bite my boy and brad be classed as a bad dog. Then after we’d had her only 9 weeks, she got sick one weekend and died on Tuesday, even though a trip to the vet on that Monday did not show anything positive in all the tests they did. No one should ever get me wrong, that boy was my heart, my soul, the love of my life and as we both got older I just loved him more and more and couldn’t have felt more love for him. Instead of going after her and getting her like I normally would, I decided I would give her a little play time outside and somehow get her later. He was very responsive to me. He was diagnosed with bladder stones 9 months ago. My poor Bimi died there, all alone, and probably dying of thirst, pain (hanging over the edge of the spade), and starving. On my last chemo treatment that week she passed.I was so sick but I wouldnt give up on her.So many details ,she knew before I did that I was sick.Her behavior,she began to really get stuck to my side,she was a large AMERICAN STAFFY of 75 lbs and I had begun to dwindle down in my physical appearance and strength but every morning she would paw me and pull the covers off and let me know “come on daddy get up we have to go” and that kept me so motivated and we began our journey of her taking care of me.And it worked but as if she absorbed my condition and fell ill at the end of my chemo treatment.I just cant get over not being able to truly find help for her,She came down with the dreaded IMHA or AHMA tons of bad drugs to try to combat it and most of the vets didnt diagnose it correctly until it was too late 4500 dollars later my baby passed.I have no money but would try again to save her,I guess thats the insanity clause kicking in.I am just LOST nothing has returned to normal,dont think it ever will,there is no one to turn to and most dont understand “ah its just a dog ” is what I hear.How cruel and to not understand what pets me to some.I am alone no children ,no wife, no kids,she was my world and so gentle and sweet.To look into her eyes one could see that she was an extension of my higher power she was GOD like and besides who is just like the lord DOG spelled backwards tells you so.Unconditional love, always there in all of your moods and situations, TRULY by your side and loving you till there last breath. But day three I felt more than ever that I couldn’t remember his face anymore and wasn’t feeling as much as I should, and now day four, I can’t understand it. The guilt is the WORST emotion I’ve ever felt. I am SO sorry for your loss. Don’t beat yourself up. Me too, so much guilt on top of the heartbreak. My beloved kitty Autumn passed away in my arms, and I couldn’t save her. His eyes , innocence of a baby, never scratched me never growled on me, just used to fold himself onto a ball and his poor eyes used to say plz don’t hurt me ….. never treated them like pets, though from my childhood have been associated with hundreds of animals birds reptiles fishes but never murdered anyone. Then she told me what would needed to be done – she said she would have to make Tigger into a girl. My Pet Died and I Can't Stop Crying Crying after the death of a pet is a normal and healthy way of grieving. Stuart was the light of my life. I wish I could do more, and I probably could have, I mean I was already in debt…but who’s to say that it would have saved her anyway. Gave her anmild sedative and I asked my husband to carry her to,the car and to please take her to pet ER for euthanasia. I love a daughter to an accidental death. The first night she had an ‘accident’ and tinkled on the futon where I slept with her so she would not be afraid-but she literally rubbed against my face all night-I awoke to find her staring nose to nose at me-just so joyful to be back. I wish I had pushed the vet to check for medical issues. Then I took him for a round of vaccines and he got very sick; he was sick for almost six months, and three different vets could not figure out what was wrong with him. Shortly before taking him to vet I see blood near his back end. The word cancer started being tossed around. She was only 17 months old. But he still wags his tail and looks at me lovingly. I’m so very sorry. We had gotten a new kitten in the household, and I just thought she was upset. He was my walking buddy and I taught him numerous tricks(very smart) I’m having a hard time with my decision. We were worried but decided to wait til our clinic opened Monday to take him in. It is the most heartbreaking process I have ever experienced… (I lost my little teacher…). Usually, there is no charge for this service. Sometimes a pet dies from old age because its body has worn out. As I went to bed, I started to feel a bad panic attack coming on. We asked dad that we would put the medicine and feed the cat because we wouldn’t take very long but he didn’t think we would do it properly. I’m really struggling with the loss, forgiveness, and sadness. Click here for instructions on how to enable JavaScript in your browser. When someone we trust fails us, it is not our fault. God bless all of the animal lovers who face this loss. I called a home vet because he was so weak to travel but they didnt arrive and didnt even call to let me know they werent coming. Self-punishment will not help. He would only walk a couple of (shaky) feet and flop over. I’m so sorry for your loss. He snuck out to the garage and I found him in the morning, he basically was frozen because it was so cold. The loss of a beloved pet is often accompanied by intense feelings of guilt and regret. You may feel a sense of guilt afterwards, but that’s OK. You are doing what’s best for your pet and your family. You probably find yourself regretting things you did, or failed to do – before, during, or after your pet’s death. My beautiful boy, Meeko, passed away on Saturday. What is compounding my grief is my daughter and husband have both said they felt her!! He was a jack russell cross. I don’t know if it was having issues with the drugs or the depression, but just like that I packed her in the carrier, walked her to the nearby vet and had her put down. We have 3 other dogs but I kind of figured it might be from him. I feel extremely guilty, sad and depressed and can’t bear to look at my yard anymore because I remember her and I remember how I decided to remove her, and I miss her terribly and can’t stop crying. But you were robbed of that because of me and the guilt along with the sorrow that I feel for your loss is unbearable. I called a couple of hours later and was told he was fine and had come round from the anaesthetic but was still groggy so they advised for me to wait a couple of hours before collecting him. He hated the vets and was always just petrified. It is so heartbreaking cause these dogs become part of you. She was dying of exposure. The day I picked her up I took her right to my vet-who also uses holistic methods. The total bill was about $2000 or so which I could not afford. My 12 yo Chia, was an aggressive cat too and had to be sedated she went to the vet. She did not deserve it and i feel guiilty because untill the end i couldn t let her go or accept it and thought if it happened she d be better in my arms to her last breath…i guess i was selfish now….now i regret it. It is ok that nature decided to take him back. I feel so responsible for letting her go in for this procedure when she was clearly too old. I will always love you and miss you, all of us will. Nobody really wants to believe their pet is seriously ill as they are usually so robust more so than humans. 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